I was in class 12th. I weighted 71 kgs. I was
huge. I hated my body. I looked in the mirror and decided this is not how I want
to look. I exercised senselessly for hours. I spend years feeling inferior. I seesawed
between binge eating and strict diet. After 2 years, I lost weight. I became 58
kgs and stayed like that for the rest of my college life. I sworn to mother God
that I will never let myself get fat again.
But in 4 years since my marriage, I am 85 kgs… I am huge.
I look ugly to myself. My mirror is not my friend anymore. Why? Why me? Why every
time me?
Now I know the answer. I am going through this again and
again because for the first time when I lost weight, I didn’t learn anything. Today
I know if I am obese, I need to know something about obesity. I need to know why
and how this happens. And that is exactly what I am going to do this time.
I am not just going to get thin. That is just going to be
the byproduct of the journey I will take to reach my health and fitness. I will
know what makes me thin. I will know what the road to good health is. If someone
is misguided like I am, he/she will be able to ask me and I should be able to lead
him/her. This is my goal.
I don’t want to get thin or weight certain number of the
weighing machine. I want to understand fitness. I want to understand health. I want
to be able to help others achieve optimum health. This is going to be one of the
goals of my life.
This is the reason why I face the problem of obesity again
and again. I need to learn my lessons before moving on.
